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writing ugh [Jan. 20th, 2018|01:00 am]
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trying not to be jaundiced about writing, but ohmygod this is not coming naturally (did it ever?) i don't know
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(no subject) [Nov. 1st, 2017|01:03 pm]
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Started watching Léa Pool's Lost and Delirious, which is a beloved lesbian/girl's boarding school flick, starring Mischa Barton, Jessica Pare and Piper Perabo. But it was bad.
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(no subject) [Mar. 18th, 2017|02:26 pm]
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There is something ancient within that doesn't want me to succeed. I know exactly what needs to be done in order to fill my days meaningfully and progress within my chosen field of writing. Yet I listlessly pursue small distractions until a bigger more plausible distraction comes along to serve as an existential beard. Rinse. Repeat. There are moments in which I am intellectually stimulated and excited and I know that these sensations could be the bedrock of all - the root of the root and the bud of the bud, but there must be something fearful in this too because why else am I procrastinating?
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The task of good criticism [Mar. 5th, 2017|04:38 am]
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The task of good criticism, according to Dr. Johnson, is “to establish principles; to improve opinion into knowledge; and to distinguish those means of pleasing which depend upon known causes and rational deduction, from the nameless and inexplicable elegances which appeal wholly to the fancy.”
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The malaise of melting memories/ Goodbye sweet Cannes 2015 [May. 26th, 2015|02:21 pm]
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Goodbye is like a little death
If only there was a way to carry a little fragment of everything
that ever touched you
And for each fragment to be big enough to bathe in
when you thirst for the splendid past.

Then goodbye wouldn't feel like violence
against love as delicate as a spider's thread
that binds hopelessly to dying things.

I wish there was a forever place
to store all sources of wonder
of which you are one.
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record keeping [Nov. 19th, 2014|07:19 pm]
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good intentions

all the quotes, you write down in a book and attribute it at the time
the photos, you upload into albums
the video,s you upload to a cloud and if someone hacks it then i don't even care
the ideas go in the book or here, like

'what if individual memories were wiped and all we had was a shared public social media conscious'


kil (keep it light)

i think happiness/ pride at being loved is melting my brain for better and for worse.

destination: *insert image of person turning into goo*
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(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2014|10:13 pm]
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I am reviewing two films. One is a paper-thin cliche-driven not remotely funny battle-of-the-sexes comedy set in Las Vegas. One uses raw footage of dead, broken Jewish bodies in concentration camps to prove that, yes, people actually did this to each other.

Cinema is a broad church. 
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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2014|12:08 am]
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You can't just be in love and selfish while the world burns.

Maybe you can. I don't know.

I think the death drive is a smart and clever and parasitic.

If you can be in love and connected to the world, wow, what a thing. 
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How to survive extreme love emotions [Jul. 24th, 2014|09:48 am]
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Be honest with the world
Do this with words and images
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2014|03:40 pm]
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